I agree with the conclusion of your argument. Everyone does deserve to die with dignity. That said, now doesn’t have to be the “right” time for you.

You should consider talking to someone with experience with these feelings. You can call 988 and talk through the logic. There are lots of people who felt the way you’re describing and came to conclude a different path was actually better in the meantime.

The world is both great and fucked up.

Right now it is likely the best its been for the most people ever. And not by a small way. And yes, for so many its also horrible right now. Made more depressing cause we see so much via the internet which tends to focus on the negative and we see this misery in 1920px 24/7.... its horrible.

I'm not the best to talk about these things...so would suggest talking to a professional if your this down, but for what its worth I do know there is a great world out there. I feel what you talk about sometimes and realise people need to shut of the global noise and do what you can to make your local patch a little better. The worlds always a mess, it always will be, and there's nothing you or I can do at that scale. But you can help out at a homeless shelter, or an old folk home etc and make a real different for many people. That and sadly, ignorance is bliss, get outta the depressing news cycle and limit yourself there a little to spend more time with family and/or friends if you can.

I truly hope things can brighten a little for you as there is also so much great around us!

I feel your anguish.

However, you must realize that if you were living in 1924 instead of 2024, the outlook for humanity would be far more bleak. Penicillin wouldn't be invented for another four years, so bacteriological infections were lethal. Measles, mumps, or rubella had likely claimed the lives of your siblings or neighbors. And your life would be bracketed by the world paroxysm of war that you had just endured, and the paroxysm that was to come.

Compared to that life, we are free from disease, the food supply is more vast and diverse, and the technology is simply stunning.

But, in a particularly human way, we dig for misery and we are very good at finding it.

I don't know what to tell you, except maybe put the shovel down for a little while, if you can.

Drugs aren’t a solution, they’re just treating the symptom not the cause. It might help for a short while, but all you’re doing is delaying having to deal with your shit; it also gets harder the longer you leave it.

Been there, got all the shirts, there’s no shortcut to getting out of it.

You got this.

if that’s really how you feel then stop reading “news” and go to the pub.

Maybe it’s a good time for an internet break