In a pit of despair, are we?

If you focus on the shit, life will be shit. Focus on what's in your control. Maybe not a lot is, but the little things are. What time you go to bed, what you eat, how you spend the little free time you may have. Take control of that first, then build off of it. Step by baby step, you'll crawl out of the abyss, and remember that you aren't resigned to eating shit the rest of your life.