I don't feel any confidence in my job lasting anymore. If I lose it I'm simply going to choose die, because I don't have any fight in me anymore. My job is the only thing that makes me worth anything as a human, if I lose it I am nothing.
It's immediately evident that it is a false statement. Perhaps you are sad and lonely. That could very well be the case. A lot of people are in the same boat, I know I am. Perhaps you have other issues entirely.
But that doesn't mean that your job is the only thing that makes you "worth anything as a human". Your worth as a person is given to you when you were born.
Not by the state. Not by your community. But by the very fact that you are a living, conscious thing. Life might be hard, but that doesn't mean without your job you are nothing.
I've not been screened, that's kind of difficult when the waiting list is years.
My dad was laid off three times in his life, including after I was just born. It wasn’t easy, but it was pretty common and expected for blue-collar people in his generation (baby boomers). Don’t make it into a bigger deal than it is.
Good luck.
I'm not trying to make an excuse, I'm on the waiting list for public services. I was/am also on a private waiting list, but missed their one random call 13 months later and got bumped to the back of the list as a result. The system is needlessly cruel and difficult to access.
Your father had a kid, a reason to continue fighting. I have nothing.
Thank you for the well wishes though.
What makes you worth anything is who you are as a person. That’s what makes you everything.
At least to me it seems like you have an unhealthy relationship with your job or just work in general.
Why would I be a burden on others? I’ve never perceived this.
I support myself and that’s all I need. Doesn’t take much at all to support myself, at least in my experience.