Damn, I'm sorry to hear that. I relate to this because I've dealt with depression too, which I also medicated in various ways.

Other than quitting the two aforementioned drugs, what helped a lot for me was living in a more evolutionarily consistent way. Especially around nutrition, sunlight, and sleep. I made this the focus of my life for about a year because the alternative was, well, you know about that.

Good luck.