The house doesn't make me happy.
Not hearing my neighbors music blasting through the floor at 2am makes me happy.
Not hearing my neighbors screaming at each other every day makes me happy
Being able to paint my walls any color I want makes me happy.
Having a plot of land I can dig up and plant stuff on or build a workshop on makes me happy.
Having a place that is my own that I can do basically anything I want with makes me happy.
Renting apartments is shit. Even condos, which you own on paper but cannot just do whatever you like with, sucks.
Hacker spaces don't exist everywhere by the way, and the ones I have been to sucked.
I don't want every facet of my life outside of my home to be public and shared. I want a private yard, not a communal park and garden. I want a private shop, not a public maker space. I want peace and quiet and a bit of distance from my neighbors, not shared walls.
Because I've lived the apartment life and it honestly did make me want to kill myself. I don't know how people just live like that.