However, in my case, that shocking astonishment was not joyful. For me, it was bitter because once I was able to see every moment of my life with all my deeds and intentions packed in a highly-concentrated billboard of information, I realized how miserable my life actually was. I was driven by fear, illusions, money, greed, and selfishness. I was not giving, I was taking. I was not caring, instead I was mostly ignorant. I knew nothing about life and now it's ending and I spent it awfully.
A few moments later, I understood that a natural cycle of life and death was going to repeat itself one more time, so I made a hard promise to do it better next time, if at all.
However, the cycle did not repeat itself, as I received adequate medical help in time. I was able to make a recovery. But that experience changed me forever.
Can you perhaps expand on the sense it wasn’t a unique experience as well? Do you feel you’ve “reversed” the course you saw?