I feel I have lost my "hunger" and was wondering what went wrong (if any) along the way.
But I’m afraid a random stranger on the Internet wouldn’t necessarily be in the best position to help you here.
Nonetheless, reaching out is always a good idea. If only not to feel alone facing whatever the day’s struggle is.
Personally, I’ve just started trying wave.ai. No idea if it’s worth it yet, but I’ve heard great things from people whose opinions I usually find worthwhile. I just hope it might help with the long term.