As someone who also had kids too late, that's a symptom of having kids too late. Not only are you more aged and worn out but your parents are also too old or dead by forty to provide consistent childcare relief in those situations. I had my first kid at 37 and it was really weird because i got to watch my parents go from kind of ok to assist with childcare to unable to do a ton as i got to 40 and they got into their late 60s. If you are kucky enough to have parents that can provide childcare use your holiday to visit them and take advantage of that, they will probably like seei g your kidbin small doses and the breaks make the holiday wonderful