-- long hauler here - I used to be the smartest person people knew - everyone would always say "wow.. you're so smart" - my memory was extremely good - I could remember most conversations I'd had - how I'd learned the things I knew came with ease - I'd be the one people would always pull into conversations to help problem solve - now - I don't know how to describe it - I know the stuff is still in there - but it's like the map to the knowledge has faded - now I spend a lot of time remembering how to remember - it's been particularly difficult as - for better or worse - I really defined myself as the smart person in the room - I really wish I could get back to how I used to be - I've tried everything I can think of but so far nothing has really helped - to be honest when I first realized what was going on I became suicidal - now I've learned to accept it - however I still hide myself away from everyone --