I've never had a medical condition that took me out of the workforce. It's sad that you've been dealt a bad hand in life. It's got to be hugely frustrating. You seem to have (correctly in my opinion) concluded that given your current limitations, there is no point in you applying for jobs. Most people who have been out of work for a year never return to the workforce. The majority of them might enjoy a "retired" sort of lifestyle. However, since you describe your life as "absolutely soul sucking", I would recommend that you remedy that by, from 9AM-5PM Mon-Fri, take the following drastic steps: Turn off the TV, video games, and aimless web browsing. It sounds like you are still capable of making money with online "gig" work of some type. Given your medical condition, you may or may not be able to perform the type of work you would enjoy. You should ask yourself what sorts of endeavors you are "world class" at, and then see if there are online gigs that are suitable for you. People who are detail oriented can make money at a wide range of online jobs. You should try to find an online gig type of job that makes you excited to get up in the morning. You need to make money, but you also need a reason to get up in the morning. I realize that the advice I've offered will not be easy. Most people in your situation would prefer to simply relax and take it easy. The easiest thing in life is to do nothing.