I'd try to frame the experience as a sunk cost (i.e. cannot be changed) and try not to quantify it. Instead focus your energy on developing your skills and keeping yourself healthy going forward. Easier said than done of course.
For example: Dr. Terry Wahls‘ Anti-MS diet:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KLjgBLwH3Wc&feature=emb_titl...
Or BDNF-boosting strategies.
Or strategies such as IF to tamp down overactive microglial cells that afflict nearby neurons with inflammation.
https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1002/jmv.26984
https://jneuroinflammation.biomedcentral.com/articles/10.118...
https://www.msard-journal.com/article/S2211-0348(20)30400-4/...