I'm stating two things:

1. I individually thought about if many times over the years.

2. I read or heard other people talking about it over the years.

You're putting words in other people's mouths. Are you some kind of Russian propaganda shill?

I thought a lot about it since then, and I still think about it even before this whole crisis...

You're being overly pessimistic saying nobody cares or remembers... We just can't do anything about it so we don't talk about it

If people caring about you does not matter, that is a sign you're heading towards nihilism. You likely need to go for a walk and choose to do something in the direction of finding a sense of community or spiritual rejuvenation.

It does. In a small way, maybe, but it does.