If I write a book, I will never be in the book. My person will shape the book, I can't write a book in a way that doesn't impart some sense of me in it. Yet I can't actually ever be in the book. I can write characters that believe I exist and even worship me as a creator, and even write a character in the book with my name that does fantastical things to demonstrate that he is the author of their reality, yet it won't really be me in the book.
I, as a creator, cannot be part of my creation. That's like looking at your foot print on the ground and expecting to find your foot somehow still in the print it left. The print is shaped by the foot, but the foot is not part of the print.