If you are seeking serious help for your emergency mental health issues go to the nearest emergency room. not hackernews. I am genuinely sad that you are in so much pain whatever the reason but there is nothing I can do to help you besides say seek professional help. I am sorry for the insensitive remark about cleaning the gene pool. That is a mark against me not you. Clearly your mind is in turmoil and you need to seek effective help, not complain on hackernews.