Out of curiosity, why? Not to doubt you or propose the solution is in another person or something.
By the way, the work you do is fucking awesome, just so you know. At least, it matters to me.
By the way, the work you do is fucking awesome, just so you know. At least, it matters to me.
Theoretically another person in my life would be good, but in practice i prefer being alone with my math books.
If you are still more interested in a self-reflection approach I would read about something like the theory of positive disintegration: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Positive_disintegration
Still, I would stress that the act of naming problems out loud to a person putting their attention on you, even like in a group talk therapy setting or something, is not a no-op
Also, with your skills, you may just be able to find somewhere where they give you a long leash so that you can work w/ your math books in a mostly self-directed fashion. I agree that the job search can be hard, though..