Holy crap, I've seen myself in the op here. I used to love coding, owned a c64 and wrote games and other small utilities when I was only a toddler armed with the "programming guide" that came with the ol' breadbox.

After 10 years of "srs coding" I felt like I was burning out and I was burned out. Because the feeling of discovery, solving people's problems and teaching the good stuff kinda disappeared in the churn. What I felt was I was adding data to a database and retrieving it when needed. The software did the required transformations that's all. Back then I was writing Java mainly and its verbosity kinda added to it.

I am not an engineer, my diplomas are on philosophy (bach.), sociology (m.a.) and international relations (bach.). And I used to feel fun and joy while doing that. Now it's all about buzzwords and creating stuff that's not neither usable nor fun.

Anyway sorry for the rambling but as a person who is in his late 30ies I didn't imagine this present, where I feel queasy from coding and think I should "relearn" the trade.

Thank you for reading!