I was about to cry but didn't happen. I've been in this position before and I've had tears rolling down. But not this time. I have learned and I know that it's not as simple as taking things for granted or not. Those that are running to their wives and kids right now are just emotionally hijacked by the rush of whatever neurotransmitter is triggered in this situations. Tomorrow it will be different and a week from now even more. And that's OK. Life goes on and we have to explore other things, pursue new goals; and if we're wise enough, we'll find a way to find peace within ourselves.