I can sympathize. I always knew how to program since my teens. I'm 45 now, and didn't really start doing professional programming till I was in my late 30s. I worked hard for about 6 years to build up enough experience to feel confident doing this.

Now I'm at the point where my current job is pretty boring and we don't grow enough to bring in harder problems. But I also really don't want to move out to SV to work on Neuralink, sats, robots. Even though those problems are one that would be super interesting.