With respect, you sound a little bit like every new programmer that I’ve worked with. They get a taste of learning about finance and suddenly become day traders. They make some money and then suddenly they give it all back and more because they really weren’t understanding what they were doing.
In general, anyone with a full time job that thinks they can out-compete full time traders that specialize in the exact instrument that you are trying to trade will have a very expensive lesson some day.
If you really want to pursue it at least take the level 1 CFA exam. If you can’t pass that you don’t have much of a chance and if you can pass that you’ll probably realize you don’t want to do it.