As a young adult I could absorb myself in projects like this...in recent years, mid career, it just doesn't seem to happen. I can't make myself care enough about anything to the extent it's very hard to imagine how someone could do anything like this project. Anyone have a suggestion for how to find that again? Maybe I lost the ability to focus on anything I'm not required to do to get paid. Or maybe I'm mildly depressed and don't know it...how does someone do this?