Sure, but at some point if you really care, there is nothing you can do.
And I also knew (and they did not know) that to make that happen, I would have to leave myself shortly after.
Turns out bosses and management are humans too, what a novel concept! Shit happens, and we are all constantly trying our best.
> I never fully recovered from the worst day of my life, and that was 19 years ago
From one stranger to another, with as much empathy as I can convey through this comment box: whether you start another project of that magnitude or not, I hope you can eventually change that sentence to "it was grueling, you kinda never forget but I did fully recover".
Thank you for sharing your story.