In other words, you can’t kill your way to power and then give away money to rescue your soul.
In other words, you can very much kill your way to power and then be fine (as to "how you sleep") with it.
Even more, unless you overdo it like Hitler or Stalin, you can have other people (heck, history itself) be fine with it, and celebrate you as a great leader, a beautiful soul, etc...
I know postmodernism isn't in favour with a lot of people, especially around here, but Foucault's ideas are profoundly interesting, and I strongly recommend you read him.
if you want to understand people, and especially organizations, you need to understand power.
No PoliSci 101 flashbacks? Foucault, Gaventa, Lukes, Nietzsche, Voltaire?
Or maybe they have been supplanted with something?