Sympathies--much of that sounds familiar. Someone else mentioned SSC here. I tried some of the stuff he mentions, and one that probably helped some was tianeptine sulfate, which you can buy legally as a supplement, without a prescription. No withdrawal zaps, etc. Definitely do your homework if you're going to try this. And I'd stay away from tianeptine sodium, which sounds like it has far greater addictive potential.

As far as clinging to women, some combination of age and several really awful breakups/betrayals seemed to rid me of that.

Good luck.