A lot of the issue is society tries to input ideas about what is "sexy" into our heads and a large part of realizing sexual liberation (both for yourself and with your partner) is dismantling those ideas and throwing them in the trash.
It's really quite sad.
On the other hand if you can buy into something that isn't considered highly desirable by society but is very prevalent, well, you can have a really, really good time.
And you're aware of it! That's a very good first step towards fixing that!
It's a slow process and I hope I too can one day have a normal life, with someone by my side.
Your attitude is pretty good - you're open and eager to improve. Just continue working on yourself!
Actually, I've realized this myself: my male friends who are tall and muscular have had many girlfriends, and the rest are still virgins.
But think about this: our society has naturally evolved to this stage. Before, males had fights to compare who had the best genes. Nowadays, we compare that through TV and media, and individuals without good genes keep themselves from passing them just through self hate.
I don't plan on quitting, and have taken active steps to help myself by trying to get fit (injuries and poor diet led to me being obese)
Thanks again!
When I was at a low in my life I too found working on my health improved my self-esteem. And when I started to feel better about myself ... well, people can sense that.