Thanks a lot for those questions, they are really helpful in self evaluation and deciding on further steps. Sometimes I think I should be more patient but somedays I feel like I should just drop it and hope for the best.
I might also suggest meditation and using the Headspace app to get started :) I found doing just 10 minutes a day helped me through a stressful period.
It won't necessity solve your problems but you'll be able to better process your feelings.
I found it helped give me more clarity over what I wanted.
Stay strong and find a solution that works for you. We all hate uncertainty but it's a big part of life. Reading Buddhist philosophy helped me realize I'm going to be okay no matter what happens. Even if I lose my job. No matter what happens I can deal with it