This is such an odd statement. The time is past, the actions have occurred; they cannot be redone. All that remains are your memories and emotions, which can be changed.
Everyone is different and no two people handle a situation in the same way.
Its too bad that you were unable to get good advice and/or consolation at the time. But maybe, with some counseling, or discussion with friends, you can revisit this bad experience and others and change how you feel about them and yourself.
Please, talk to someone (like a consuelor or a therapist) and work it out.
Bullies do exist. Sometimes, they teach you something, and sometimes they're just bullies. (I'm not excusing their behavior).
Isn't it good that you didn't have access to guns? So why not just repeal the 2A?
Teaching gun culture and demanding gun safes (like it's done around here) would probably be a safer and more efficient route.
That can be done and the 2A can also be repealed (gun ownership doesnt need to be a "right"). Why not do both?
If it wasn't a right then it would suddenly be worthless in many districts.
Here's some middle ground:
Mandatory training. Around here it is provided by hunters organizations, often at cost price.
Background checks by police + recommendation by hunter organization or the equivalent of NRA.
I'm sure what's left of the government will act in the best interest of the entire country.
And surely all the guns will just cease to exist after our right to legally bear them is repealed. Gangsters, teenage boys, drug dealers, they will all happily turn in their guns and promise not to get any more.