If you dont like what you are doing, don't do it. Find something that motivates you.
In my opinion you should learn at least some basics skills about planning in technology/engineering. Learn what is the Waterfall model, what is Toyotism, what is Agile software development, scrum, Kaban ... there are many things that you can learn, but first things first. What are you interested in?
Anyway, my very best advice. Try to crash in a place where they really know what they are doing. Try to work with great and smart people, even if you earn less money. "Be the worts", that will make every day a challenge.
Will you consider relocate?