You’re getting older, more conservative and more averse to change. It’s ok, it happens.
As part of this you’re also likely over-estimating the danger and underestimating the benefits.
I’m sure every self-driving car death will (and should be) scrutinized heavily. But remember there’s between 30,000 and 50,000 auto deaths every year. I’m betting self-driveing cars will do better.