Lol @ the people saying tell the wife that'll only make things worse.

Bottom line you're a weak person and this depressive episode will destroy everything you've built. A strong person wouldn't cry in the shower for an hour or consider asking a woman for help.

Sincerely not trying to shit on you or your situation but this is the real underlying problem. My advice would be therapy and prescription drugs. A weak person like you needs to "talk it out" and get constant reassurance from a quack.

This seems like the only way you'd make it to an exit.