Yes, I have had similar experiences and it's very off-putting to have "jew haters" muddy the waters of open exchange of ideas. What I am left with is this though: if there's no evidence other than eye witness accounts and a confession from Hoess extracted under torture, then it's a matter of choosing what to believe in. And if I have a choice, why would I choose to believe something so horrifying? Especially after so many things that once were accepted as true are officially no longer so: It was supposed to be 4.5 million at Auschwitz and now around 1 million and finally the guy running Auschwitz admitted on camera that what is shown to tourists (the gas chambers) have been build after the war to what it likely was before, since the Germans converted the building into an air raid shelter. And that's only the tip of the iceberg. I know it's hard getting into this topic because of it's gruesome nature and the implication that not believing in the official Holocaust means that somehow that makes you a Nazi or a Nazi defender in the eye of the public.