I know because I can get that way. I'm one of those people who ends up knowing how everything works because I'm wired that way. And it's really hard to hand jobs off to colleagues who you perceive as less competent. That's perfectionism. It's a great way to not get things done that need doing. Because you don't have the time to do everything that needs doing.
There isn't enough time available for you personally to do everything you feel you need to do, to the standard you feel it needs to be done, that you think no one else can achieve. Certainly not if you also need to feed your family and the things you need to do are not bringing in enough income.
The solution, as annoying as it is, is to drop your standards, to realise some of those needs are actually wants. Having a cool, fulfilling job that pushes all your buttons and pays really well is a luxury many people don't get. Having random strangers pay for your living costs so you can do cool stuff is a massive, massive luxury only a few people get.
What's really important to you: NTPsec or food & shelter? Sounds like you're choosing the former.
Making these choices is hard. I've moved to a small town and as a one man band cannot get the sort of technically sophisticated work that I really enjoy doing. But hey, living here is cheap and people are friendly and laid back. We have a lovely house. Trees the kids can climb. I can cycle from suburbia to my office in 7 minutes.
To get this, I had to give up my dreams of having top notch IT work.
I don't have a Patreon. I could work on some cool infrastructure work, too, if I had one and people donated enough to keep my family afloat. But I don't. I have a job that is sometimes boring and sometimes not. And I have a roof over my head, food on the table, access to good medical care, running water, electricity, broadband ... I'm doing better than most of the world's population. I can't complain.