I guess ambiguity / assumed apple fanboyism is why you're downvoted, but if I'm understanding you correctly, then I feel largely the same way.
Apple's walled garden and "moral" approach to guarding their garden is incredibly frustrating, but the sheer number of vulnerabilities affecting different levels of the Android stack is so disheartening. This is true of my PC/Mac as well, all it takes is someone to plug in a malicious USB stick and it'll infect the firmware on the USB host, and that's it, game over. Can spread from there to disk firmware, also growing increasingly complicated and opaque, and who knows where else.
It's reaching a point where I trust my iOS device more than any other, depressingly because of the walled garden. I can't build suitable fences around my kit myself to protect myself against every new vuln (now even monitors can have their firmware exploited and screenloggers installed), giving up trying and sacrificing some freedom for that sense of security is terrible, but feels like the only logical course of action at this point.