How could school not be stressful.
Same rooms. Every Day. Same kids. Same motivations. Same tapping-of-the-foot. Same stagnation. Same restlessness. Same mockery. Same shame.
'Stupid fucking faggot retard loser fatty useless cunt.'
Try living with that cacophonous litany for 8 hours daily and not coming out a little fucked.
Absolutely a first world problem but I would have 100% more enjoyed an apprenticeship or something similar.
I hated myself all throughout high-school. Hated. Cogitated on my own self termination regularly.
Today, working on my own, I feel so much better; not having to actively think about the various groups I have to conform to or rules I have to follow... Extremely liberating.
I just want to freelance, actively contribute, subsist, and die.
I'm not a piece of shit for wanting that.