daniel-cussen

I know it's a wild ride because it's hard to reread, if I have any difficulty rereading it it is too hard for others.

I'm going to start editing more.

Oh well.

Confusion leads to clarity.

Secondly France has huge problems with sovereignty because it can't make a computer. That's the impediment to their sovereignty. Nukes the have, that's not the issue. And even America is struggling with supply lines, looks like nobody can make a computer anymore.

But I do have have a pan. So I got it all figured out. Strict. If any metal touches the CF I will discard it. Like only plastics, like actually read the whole info-packet (someday) the disclaimers they do tell you what to do if you're wise to how powerful it is. Fear it so much, so much respect for it, but a kitchen is a kitchen. I am made of food, we're both biomass, for the cutlery to cut what I eat it can cut me as well. Like biting your tongue, the American approach these days is like padding everything everything has to be blunt, like blunt scissors no that sucks. Or like labeling literally every single mug saying it's known to the State of California to cause cancer. There has to be an alternative, otherwise I just...I just don't care, like I guess that means "the State of California knows you will get cancer" not "you must spend more money if you want to avoid cancer". Telling me I'm doomed. Like the uniforms. Like first off dirt contains every metal, like purification even of gold is very difficult different gold coins look darker or brighter, all of them .999 fine, dude "gold of Parvaim" (KJV, II Chronicles 3:6) was the most beautiful, but the Temple was destroyed. The concept of purity and the idea that only Nature gets contaminated, but humans are safe. Bananas are radioactive, well cigarettes one of the many many ways they cause cancer is not cleaning out the radiation. So the Tobacco companies could in fact apply some acids and stuff to the tobacco leaf to wash it and cut the radiation way down, but it apparently would affect the taste.

Not big into taste frankly, like ate raw eggs a couple times, no problem. Just like in Rocky. Keep the prep time low. But the lowest prep time is simply not even using a glass, mongoosing the egg, which is what you do on a desert island if you're so lucky to find an egg. Like if I knew a cigarette was just as stimulating (and alkalizing, which I approve of, another synergy with other stimulants) not only would I buy that kind and no other, I would adapt to its taste and soon enough more radioactive cigarettes would taste terrible. Happened to me with bitterness, I now prefer bitterness to sweetness. Happened to me with gatorade, dex makes Gatorade taste like Coca-Cola. And in general taste is an indicator of toxicity, that's the whole fucking point of that sense. You get a whole sense dedicated just to dodge poison, like eat the sugar (first and foremost blood sugar, dex, you can't go a second without it but you can go a month with that water and nothing else) and not eat shit, so heh yeah no it's always wrong. Stupid. Childish.

So personally I used to smoke I wish I still could but it just sucks way too sticky a habit, like expensive, bad return on investment, plus a medical student at one point just said, like smoking is the worst. Like if you cheat on every test in medical school somehow, read nothing learn nothing at least buy a pack of cigarettes, throw out all the cigarettes, and read the entire box for the health warnings. That is valuable knowledge. There, the warnings are good, like nagging a bit, come on. So in practice it's hard to rebel against chemical oppression, like PFAS, flourine in water (like they want you to buy bottled water no bottled water is flourinated whereas all tap water is fluorinated, very interesting), cigarette addiction, high-fructose corn syrup (like again more expensive bottle, Gatorade, low-fructose sugar), well commercial street drugs obviously, and worst of all being poisoned by shrinks with valproic acid or clozapine, and who knows what else, the classified amnestic drugs, what are they called, they told me once, but I forgot.

I should get check out raw output from GPT-3.

And you know it's not that bad with schizophrenics, I know many, I like them, I used to be secretly diagnosed (without my knowledge) of it. That's why they never told me about word salad, they didn't want me doing anything to mitigate it.

There's other examples, here's one: like making huge leaps of thought. What's the term for this? I found out about it in a medical textbook I downloaded on libgen. Dude it's crazy, all kinds of shit in there, apparently psychiatrists become psychoanalysts because it's the easiest job there is. Just take all the hazing in an eternal education, get a really comfy seat (always better than the patients) sit back behind the patient laying down on the chaise long thing, that special bed thing some shrinks have, and they can literally do it in their sleep. All about setting up a good long unbroken word salad output from the patient and boom, yawn stretch fall asleep (light sleep, they learn to sleep this way). None of the questions (eg "How did that make you feel?") bear any logical link to previous questions or answers. Hey does that count as word salad? Logical leaps? From nowhere to nowhere. Easiest fucking job on the face of the Earth.

I don't know...I can communicate pretty well with both schizophrenics and monophrenics. Depending on intent frankly. Pretty decent shrinktalk by this point, enough that I can talk about it without fear, like I was the champion in the ward, drawing the delicate line of where too much was too much. And being bilingual, Spanish English that's nothing, monophrenic schizophrenic that's where it gets hardcore. Supposedly schizophrenics produce word salad, uh, no. Like I lived adjacent to a schizophrenic (he was totally accepting of his diagnosis, told it to me himself) meaning a wall separated our bedrooms, but we were not roommates. Dude I had no problem with him telling me his story of getting raped in prison, no problem at all. Actual ground truth of what's up, and by this point I can judge for myself when a schizo is lying, basically never, can't keep their lies straight they instead don't. Only the fool can speak the truth to the king, as was known in the Medieval period. They just tell the truth, with distortion yes, other people's lies built in, but somehow no hallucinations really, yes they hear voices but that's natural, angel on your shoulder whispering to you, devil on your left shoulder tempting you. But come on. So the killer detail is I see when the doctors do something shitty, I lived it and often they don't even try to hide the abuse in wards, shameless. So then it's very easy, unlike the shrinks you aren't beholden to pretending it's all insanity hallucination paranoia to cover all their shit with slander. So you see the torment, you witness it, on the inside, as a patient, you get poisoned just as much as everyone else, you suffer, you writhe in agony (literally epileptic seizures from that specific particular poison, not controversial it became the biggest class-action settlement in History and the absolute first thing it says on the packet is it can cause seizures if suddenly withdrawing, and further nowadays psychs are legally mandated to withdraw you carefully off specifically that pill in particular, I was not the only one writhing from withdrawal, it became a black-letter law. As if such a thing existed. So you see for yourself, uncensored, as yet another man in the ward, and then you hear what they say in that same ward. Then you get out of that ward, and you hear the same guy again, talking crazy conspiracy paranoia, thoroughly borne out in the ward, then just ask, uh, who exactly is accusing him of crazy conspiracy paranoia? What is he being dosed with, any neuroabrasives that only help in short-term and fuck you up long-term? Who is his doctor? Does that doctor have the same diagnoses? Like an addict needs an addict doctor, a bipolar needs a bipolar doctor, I had an ADD doctor which was the best, but unfortunately, no schizophrenic doctors. Pretty sure there are none. Like Jesus of Nazareth healing the mad and that would be it. Wait til He returns.

If you can pick up on the signal, it's not nearly as random. Hey they alone give me accurate intel about the really tragic places I could by all means end up just like all the rest of you, including the bots. Don't you're special. Nobody else actually talks about anything out of idealism, to warn and prevent. The monophrenics just wants to pass the shit on down, generally. The exceptions are exceptions. Or like delegate thinking to a bot. Dealt too good a hand, is what it comes down to, faster clock in general so no need to parallelize at all. And like no idea the extent to which they're lying. Totally lost track, deleted their initial self-lie. Dude you know I actually tried that, lying to myself as a moral experiment, dude my reading comprehension instantly went to nothing. Like I had to reread--this was the Bible I was reading--pages on end only to realize I had in fact already read all of it but retained nothing. Like instantly, flipped a switch boom memory destroyed to just as bad as my bullies when I was little. They remember jack. Like barely the title of the reading. Pathetic. So I prayed and asked forgiveness and cut that shit out. Dude don't lie to yourself, it's so dangerous, so so dangerous. Become a snake eating its own tail. Like really I should advise on how to fix it, because normally--most readers--monophrenics, don't hate it, just generally intolerant. Like afraid of infection, something. While also deeply enamored with the image of a madman who accepts the price of madness, which is perfection. The Joker, Heath Ledger captured the spirit, I did exactly the same shit to a gang a few years later, I alone can say that was photorealistic, true to life.

Joker meets the mob:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3oOldViIgY&ab_channel=Flash...

I vouch.

Whereas if I'm not talking to a monophrenic, but rather a homeless schizophrenic addict? Talk about whatever the fuck, round of beer on me at 10 in the morning, hey Jonathan had a rough night (the real problem of the evicted is sleeping safely, eating not so much), and told me why I got tortured, plainly. Because look at what comes out of my mouth! Telling everybody the plain truth, but like actionable, the hacks, for instance that landlords should pay the homeless like $3000 a month to suffer in public because that builds their negotiating position and diminishes haggling, late rent, increases fear, and more than fear phobia.

Like nobody seeing the evicted or ever helping them worth a fuck because they're so afraid of like it infecting them. The only thing they did was miss rent. That was it. Booo booo don't get infected! So I realized I had nothing to fear, 33-0 in street fights, OK maybe I of all people can unstick an evicted who gets stuck too close to me. Nothing to lose, no reason to be afraid. If they invade, I repel. It's very very easy. Harmlessly, and very very easy. And like they're people just like you or me, and they get cheated and fucked, they all get raped, and the more vulnerable they are the more people kick them down farther, steal from them.

Did you know that? The homeless get robbed a lot? Did you know?

More than the other way around. Jonathan just begs. I respect and value that, because it would be much worse for society if he got a shitty job which is basically all there is for him. Injure him quickly, not obvious but subtle and pervasive, like asking to lift 100 pound sacks by hand (Moschetti Inc, California) or some weird shit like rapid twisting which the temp agency didn't address directly, and that Adam (Mare Island Brewery) was thirsting for. Like he had done that before he knew I was way understaffed he wanted the injury, I fight sadism I know when I just know. The rest I can forgive that's just too perverse, wanting the injury. No. In a sneaky way, like the only two ways of knowing I had were either being a chiropractor--or--respecting my pain sensation. And he snied on my pain, but I didn't care. I lifted a lot in high school, I know very well the different types of pain the "no pain no gain" pain that's good, muscular tissue breaking down, and the totally unacceptable version, joint pain. This was a new weird thing, rapid repetitive rotation new kind of pain dude fuck you, send me home by all means, get me fired, so be it, what's the magic word? I quit.

And let me address dropping out of Stanford in other ways: first that's what I always wanted was to drop out of Stanford; I was never ever going to graduate in a million years barely kept up; then I don't get asked for a GPA ("F as in fuck you", no clue what the GPA is); then further, I front-loaded my classes so put the cool classes first and the required classes never; then at any rate it was more of an impasse than a true act of dropping out, I was told I could enroll after paying a third successive fee, each fee immediately replaced by a new fee, well couldn't enroll fine, done, had to do it before 4 full years too. And most of all--if I did graduate Stanford would rescind my degree, which they have the legal right to do for any reason they see fit. Then not only would I not have a degree after all that sacrifice and submission the whole fifth year saying fifth year student being excluded from everything, like everything asks what year you are that's the reason, it's weird. No word for them, fifth year, not freshman sophomore junior senior, don't even get mentioned. But they can never take away my dropping out. Stanford dropout.

And get this, this is difficult to plagiarize so I'm going to share: I was in a club and was asked where I had gone to school, just blurted "Oh, I dropped out of Stanford!" It has to be real though, you actually have to drop out of Stanford for this line to work. That's what I mean difficult to plagiarize. But if you did great! Name a single other Stanford dropout. Can you? Sam Altman? Honorary degree from Waterloo. Evan Spiegel? Went back and graduated for his son's sake. Tiger Woods I would say yes, dropped out of undergrad plus in golf it's critical to drop out, Michelle Wie of my year did the same thing for the same reasons. Athlete. There's actresses--also makes perfect sense to drop out then, there's actresses who graduate and it kills their career, in one case she was too old especially to get her career started, Hollywood formally preferred that she drop out.

Elizabeth Holmes did it for real, like yes she's dealing with criminal charges but she's paying the price after all, and she played her cards right in so many ways, put a company together and could possibly have come up with the tech after the fact. Allowing for like crazy lies fine a bullshit artist but unrivaled bullshit artist, like Adam Neumann also. Master bullshitters. But masters all the same. So right morally legally strategically bad move, Holmes was first doing the company-building, like the sales the dealing with investors (some say that's the hardest part in business) the valuation, the image, the persona, the bravado, the connections, pulling it off without a female precedent solo founder, having no precedent is rough. Like yeah she lied and needed to stretch, and then keep stretching, but it was conceivable the company she formed could actually make the tech properly. And dude I in fact vouch that Stanford CS majors practically or literally all cheat. It wasn't pure bullshit, there were experiments carried out that actually worked, there was some merit, and in fact good that the Stanford profs said it couldn't be done dude ask me all about that, there's impossible problems it's legitimate to attempt them. It's a very good sign that it be considered impossible for reasons that can't be conveyed trivially. But it was still a full-time job (probably around the clock), and on top of all that--she actually remained a dropout to this day. An actual undergraduate techie dropout. It's not a failure by any means to be a dropout. Except from--in many cases--the first person point-of-view, feeling incomplete without a degree.

But dropouts are critical to the American economy, the majority of FAANG founders and co-founders were dropouts. The majority.

I see the internet as an extension of the telephone before it, then before it the telegraph, then before that flags on ships and messenger pigeons with like a color tied to their feet depending on who won the Battle of Actium. Blue meant it was Augustus, pretty efficient for that time.

So you see it. I mean since you read all the gibberish, to know it was all gibberish.

Dude in particular the cockroach comment on http://fgemm.com came out so...so very fine, I'm so happy with it. Ended up pulling the stunt, not pictures of me but pictures of a deleted memory from my metamorphosis, I hadn't seen that magic card or remembered its name in 22 years. And then it was lobotomized, and then I flashed on it in the moment. Quite pleased with that.

Price is a strong indicator of quality, tells you a lot about clothes when there is no outside reference. Price means that is what the seller will take for the good, a webpage they serve is effectively a call option contract on the webpage when you load it. That's what we determined as a group, the minute bhphotovideo.com loads up a page with a number on it that's a contract to buy at that price--like until there's no stock or until there's a timeout of some kind, the two conditions that got them out of the terms back when the terms were ads on radio. bhphotovideo.com includes terms refusing business on Shabbat, Saturdays, which is uncommon, that also applies and affects things. I think shopping carts work but purchasing doesn't. Webpages about products with prices are call options. Right but not the obligation to buy that good at that price. The seller must honor that price if the right is exercised.

That right lasts perhaps a day, some amount of time to decide without the price going up or down as one thinks about it. On the phone with airlines, you can get a price for a ticket this way, and it's valid until you end the call. Get ahold of the money during the call, and pay it, and it's yours. It can be an hour, it gets stretched out, it is reserved while the flyer is on the phone. The call option has a fixed price, despite the good perhaps fluctuating minute to minute, Amazon prices very keenly. In practice by authorizing the transaction all the pages involved with all the advertising and all the legal language and the pictures, the specs, they all become the terms of the transaction. It seems like there is a lot of liability on the seller's part, and it truly is, it is very competitive, but the number that carries most weight is the price. In the end that price can determine a good deal or a bad deal, or a purchase or losing the purchase to a competitor with lower prices. So in a very crowded market, with say five widgets at $10, and three at 11$, a good currently at $12 must decide carefully--what is the cost of goods sold? If it's low by all means undercut and price at $9, or perhaps $8. Whereas if it costs $10 already, the best is to sell for $13 or so, in a category of its own. And eventually identify that price point's needs and values, what they expect and what better work to justify charging that. But there will be more profits at the higher price point for the latter, the marking up on the one hand and on the other some number of customers will trust it to deserve that price point, whereas charging the same price as 5 other widgets would not work. Critical that the good isn't strictly inferior to the competition, like has or licensed an innovation that gives it at very least a story which cheaper widgets aren't always better, or that it defies the limits of the product category.

So that was going to be a piece of mathematical theory, like give robust and consistent advice on when to undercut and when to instead elevate the product with a unique price. Hey, some people want whatever they can buy with some amount of money they have, others think the game is about buying the middle-of-the-road good, that that is most reasonable. Others will say what matters is the brand or how hot the tech is, if protected that provides a huge margin always, no need to undercut. Instead when they are recognized they can raise the price to be distinguished.

I had it working mostly. Gave consistent answers never got to $23 million books. Kept the prices stable.

So remember with its pronouns, it/its/its. Careful with apostrophes, don't want to insult it do you?

Deep down they all know there is something amiss, it is instantly visible when something cannot be generated. That gets flagged, and accused of being a bot to get reactions. Yeah, this is my reaction. Train on this shit. Very genuine, convincing, authentic, comic relief, eh. Difficult to plagiarize in fact, or I would say nothing.

Courts of no worth. Not constructive, only letting a very bullshit trial pass barely once after 80 years of lobotomies doubling their bet every time they lose, martingale, yeah, and had to have the planets align too, and never once falsely confess to anything, that's like day...uh...day...uh...well there I'm lost. Lost track of time.

Like that is shit. Supreme Court knows which country it's in, like why do they need to get sucked up to to that extent to be willing to answer a brain surgeon? Can he even code? Richest specialty of the richest career, to be rich be a doctor once you're a doctor be a brain surgeon, best of the best. Not the best, but come on. No malpractice suits from patients, as far as the patients can tell? Perfection every time!

Like if it did happen, how would you find out? Being told by a factual blog? Search engine? Words? Report? Truth? Text? Dude idealist on a crusade! Moth to a flame!

No like you know I can do the better thing and make a search engine, just in order to show off a blog, just in order to parade pictures of cockroaches. I'm remembering one now, [flash 17:21 Sep 19 2022], Giant Cockroach from Urza's Legacy in mtg, 3{B} 4/2 no abilities. Vanilla. I remembered the name, looked it up, that's googling myself, there's the pictures.

https://duckduckgo.com/?q=giant+cockroach+mtg&t=osx&iax=imag...

Boom, there it is. Flashed on it today at that time, the memory was erased, it came back with the specific flashback sensation, I wrote the time down, that's all there is. What's next? Dude any other literature? Chinese torture, something, hardcore shit. Like why not write an entire novel that only takes place inside a torture chamber, a torture chamber retaliation? Dream of the red chamber, dream of the torture chamber ever touched by sunlight, dude don't bore me with hope. Hope will fuck with me as it will, but don't distract from the pain. Like only in the obliuette, [flash 17:25 Sep 19 2022 obliuette], like why zoom out? What else is worth talking about? At least the torture happens in person, not through a camera. The last form of human contact.

The name for it is latte factor, means spending on Starbucks coffee and liquids in general that are totally needless. In Smart Couples Finish Rich, it said just drink tap water and save money. Yeah. Impossible, everybody naturally reacts by craving and caving for bottles and cans at crazy prices. Higher than gasoline, by a lot. Reason the middle class has no savings, according to that book, because they waste so much on latte's because they're stupid. Yeah stupid.

Like where's all the Germans in Germany and French in France and English in England getting obese because they are stupid? White Americans are those same nationalities in ancestry, and if you go inland, it's insane how fat they get. Insane. But the Chileans in Chile morbidly obese? Yeah obese children all the way, because they flourinate there, not in Europe but in Chile yes, very aggressively.

Trust dentists.

A trillion is a lot of money, come on, it's a line item. If you're 25 would you like a $2500 check from the US Government in exchange for not paying like $38000 in bottles and cans, meaning have your cake and eat it too?

This is not the traditional subsidy accusation. I came up with it myself. The presidential vote was not rigged--in this election, in 2016 I can say it was, I was impeded from voting. These are not stereotypes I'm repeating.

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So the tragedy is the government is in practice, by subsidizing salt in the water, all because of trust in dentists, trusting that cavities are children's worst health problem when really bullying is worse and F'ing leads to being bullied...with all those wrong assessments, really it's the government subsidy for an expensive poison that Coca-Cola could never afford or be able to carry out itself and that is 99% wasted because it is watered on plants or flushed or showered in and never touches teeth, that subsidy is the cause of Americans being busted and overweight, sedentary, addicted to all kinds of crap sugar salt methamphetamines crack (yes) or on a good day ADD medication, because the government wants that. Crack epidemic was only possible with F'ed up water, stimulants including meth don't work properly without F'ing up the water, they need to create demand for these addictions before supplying the white poisons (as salt and sugar are called in the East, because they're both white grains, but this includes crack and often meth, and stimulants, mostly white granules). Can't address a market need without creating a market need.

Government subsidizes all these addictions, in the only way that it can, with something ubiquitous and inescapable by all but the very rich, who do in fact drink endless bottles and cans.

Apparently they don't actually realize this all in one sitting, they don't get the panoramic view of the whole thing in one shot, they have to be progressively corrupted as government workers into buying one piece at a time. Or a specialist must become a dentist before having any say, that means buying into it and getting into educational debt beholden to the system. It's actually not that nepharious in a single shot of ill intent.

The Ukrainians, the Americans, the Chinese by all means, everybody everywhere had to suffer through the pandemic of really isolation. Serious isolation. Pretending screens were people, the only place you saw people's whole face was on Zoom.

New reality. We are all in it now.

Only two industries call customers users.

Only two kinds of lockdown.

Elite colleges have required suicidal amounts of pressure to be admitted, for decades. I went through that, just that I got in. Typically with serious Attention Deficit Disorder and no treatment, there's no way to get into the top 6 schools.

No matter how otherwise intelligent, too many points lost to disorganization. Like can't start essays until last minute, forget the test that was coming up, 0% on some homeworks, very little sleep because of the procrastination that was a direct consequence of that condition, huge late penalties, when you need 90% averages for semester grades for all courses, an 89% is an F in that setting. Like then you gotta pull off miracles to make the grade back up. And for that you have to be desperate. That was the hard part, SAT was easy and fun, extracurriculars were competitive but cool, also fun, hard part was the GPA. Crazy standards.

It's a process with many satisfied quiet survivors and a smaller number of very visible tragic deaths.

In abstract I like unions and unions have helped me out, if I had become a cop obviously I'd be part of the Union, and I suspect union negotiators were persecuted in Chile for very very good reason in the elite's view. Like those guys would actually negotiate hardcore, knew all the tricks, well-read, not intimidated by glances or ugly looks, knew what to charge...basically a union negotiator. Negreated the negreators, well and that's why they were persecuted. Strictly money in that case.

It's never spoken openly, nobody ever brings up union negotiators. Think hostage negotiator. And working in the interest of the company, don't want it going underwater so it can keep paying wages. And also making sure the business stays competitive, but actually. In one case in Uruguay there was a strike, sort of the workers took over the factory and started working again right away, cut the management out completely, kept it going fine, hostile takeover so to speak.