It is easy now to explain but not always easy to reach my reader. I often dont make sense to others even with my technical writing. I regard that as my own fault and so feel it is beholden upon me to find a way to enable others to understand either by editing my work or by writing new material.

I once struggled to paas, that is to pass as that which I am not, but I decided to go public in part because working as a coder contributed to my recovery:

Programming and Madness

http://www.warplife.com/mdc/essays/mental-illness/programmin...

... and in part because It is important that others understand that reality is not as concrete as it at first appears. There are many ways to induce delusion in the minds of even completely sane, rational people; I published my first web page about my manic depression in respnse to the 1997 Heaven's Gate UFO cult mass suicide in 1997. The following is version 2.0:

http://www.warplife.com/mdc/books/schizoaffective-disorder/r...

While informed by my studies of anthropology, psychology and social psychology it also draws on my own experience with cults. The world recoiled in horror in 1997 because Heavens Gate made no sense, while I recoiled in horror because it made quite a lot of sense to me.