There's something there, that's for sure. Don't believe me? You don't have to. Try it out yourself.
There's something there, that's for sure. Don't believe me? You don't have to. Try it out yourself.
I would heartily recommend Liber Null and Psychonaut. You may choose to buy it via Amazon, but below is the ebook download (multiple formats).
https://archive.org/details/LiberNullAndThePsychonaut
Please know that most of your change will happen inwards at first. Your goal is to control yourself before anything else. From there, you will learn how to control your environment. And your ethics will be challenged. Many people go crazy with this power, in what we call magus-itis. Read more about it here:
http://www.witchvox.com/va/dt_va.html?a=usks&c=words&id=1083...
How is this useful: You will learn about yourself. You'll learn how to meditate, as well as how to use all 5 of your senses completely. If you wish to stop, stop. Nothing bad happens. Later on, when discussing things that aren't viewed, it does take some belief that they are happening. Things get weird when other people sense your 'hallucinations'. Do they, or do they not exist? I can't tell you. It's your path.
Historical: Many of the older spellcasting books since the 1700's used the name Liber [Something] as to denote it was a craft book. The 1700's through 1900 books were more of demonolatry and satanic worship. Think of them as mainly anti-Christian books of magic. There are other books outside this realm, but if you're interested, you'll find them soon enough.
Wouldn't you then be stuck in the awkward position of engaging mysterious potentencies which impact your life but who's fundamental operations seem utterly mysterious to you ?
To me, philosophically speaking, that sounds like a recipe for disaster. The analogy that spring to mind is a tourist onboard a nuclear submarine who is jabbing his finger wildly at the controls without knowing what any of the buttons and levers do. I mean it sounds like good fun if thrill seeking is your cup of tea, and I can see how it might be possible to convince yourself there's "something there", but yet it's an inherently risky proposition is it not ?
Oh, no wait, that's "chaos magic" from an anime series, in which there's actually such a thing as "chaos magic".
Maybe not "Shoggoth make me a sandwich" powerful, but still.
"Chaos magic" and any other type of faith-based system will require you to take that leap in order for it to work (as it did for Alan Moore, as another comment mentioned). If you don't want to because you don't want to embarrass yourself for trying some "wacky voodoo", it's alright, but again, as much as the world is increasingly secular and atheist it's still nice to respect other people's belief systems. What works for you might not work for them and viceversa. There's no need to demean beliefs if they do not affect you in any way and even if they do, I'd go as far as saying to start attacking them when they harm you in profound ways.
If you do try, though, hope it works out for you, it's a nice ride that gives understanding to many things including awareness/consciousness.