Helping the People Who Don’t Get Hired
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I can still do tech work and program, just that everyone can pick up I am mentally ill and discriminate against me for it. I'd have to find the right company that can accommodate a mentally ill person as an employee. I'm often accused of having autism in the way I talk and write.
I am also over 40 now, so age is a factor.
I vaguely understand that workplace stress can be debilitating, but I don't have a clear understanding of this issue.
Would you mind shedding a bit of light on your story?
It used to take months to debug a program to get it right with quality and security checks. Management suddenly wanted it done in weeks instead of months. Most programs were written in spaghetti code, with no comments, no documentation, and I had to fix all of that. I was moved into a new position called legacy software and any program that was messed up became legacy software.
I worked extra long hours, I took some work home to try and make the deadlines. I was under a lot of stress and I even had dreams about the code. I had problems sleeping, and had to go to work while I was sleepy. On June 2001 I experienced my first delusion. I thought I heard two airliners crash into our office tower one after the other. I freaked out and had a panic attack. Went to a mental hospital after others didn't hear the plane crashes. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and placed on short-term disability. I was told that the stress at work had triggered a stroke and caused some damage and I developed this mental illness that is rare (Less than 0.5% of the population has it). On September 11, 2001 while I was recovering at home on short-term disability I saw the two planes crash into the WTC and it sounded just like my delusion. I was scared, and the people at my work must have been scared that I heard two planes crash into our building, and then 911 happens a few months later.
I return to work in November 2001, my cubical is gone, they move me to this open space near a bookshelf and give me even more work. I had another panic attack and was told by my boss to "Snap out of it or you are fired!" and I couldn't snap out of it so security escorted me out of the building and I was fired.
After that it has been hard finding work, when I apply I am 'overqualified' even if the company makes a public statement that they can't find qualified people and have to hire H1B Visa workers to fill jobs. If I did get hired, they keep me on only to debug their programs and get them to the next level and then fire me.
I don't understand why I was treated that way, and I've always been nice to people and helping them out.
But I ended up on disability in 2003 because I am unemployable, can't find a job that would be willing to work with me through my mental illness and keep me on.
I just need to find something I am good at and doing it remotely, I am out of practice with my skill sets.
As mchaver suggested, if you do want to look for remote work, I have a list of sites that can be of help :
https://weworkremotely.com/ http://careers.stackoverflow.com/jobs?allowsremote=true http://www.authenticjobs.com/ https://news.ycombinator.com/submitted?id=whoishiring https://remoteok.io http://www.workingnomads.co/jobs http://jobmote.com/ http://dice.com http://authenticjobs.com http://www.reddit.com/r/forhire http://wfh.io
I feel like a group panel interview would skew candidates in a different way than a one on one. There's some psychology around how people act in groups at play that might really mask the viability of a candidate.. for instance in group social settings, wouldn't whoever's the most dominantly confident (or just loud), going to have an outside advantage in impressing the interviewer?
The hiring team forms a circle at a discrete distance around the group and each of us has an assigned person to watch. That way we can catch body language etc. When doing this, it is remarkable how some people can in a low key, quiet way, bring missing information into the discussion, sway the group or bring it to a constructive consensus. We love those people and they have a high success rate when we hire them.
It is pretty normal that a very impressive candidate one-on-one looks very different in the group setting, and vise versa. We tend only to hire the people that do well in both the one on one and the group.
Oh - the loud dominant strategy is very hard to pull off successfully in a group context. There is too much risk of it being obvious (to the hiring team watching) that it subtracted value.
From a candidate's perspective, the phone screen lets you prove yourself to the company and get to know them a little before taking the commitment of actually going there - usually during business hours, possibly disrupting any job you're currently working at. I feel more comfortable taking time off to go there when they've already proven that they're serious about me and I know that they've evaluated me well enough to know that there's at least a good chance I'm a fit for the position.
That being said, I also really like the idea.
Probably not many, but as was discussed recently in the context of TripleByte[1] some qualified people have "bad" resumes and may struggle to get phone screens. Go through enough resume-level rejections and you might welcome such an open house, if for no other reason than to network with people you might not otherwise be able to meet.
I understand your point about the phone screen, but found that this is a trade-off. The phone screen was very ineffective for us in letting people know who we are, our size, our location, what we do on a daily basis. The open house format lets the prospective employees see us as we are, where we are. Inevitably, people drop out of the process, and it's fine with us, as it opens up slots for those who like what they see. In an open house format, the candidates ask questions as a group, which means that any particular person benefits from the questions that others ask. They see our existing staff and can decide if this is a group they want to work with.
We are upfront with the candidates that we can't hire all of them, and therefore it seems like a fair exchange to do something for the "unchosen" as a bonus for coming in. Brooke and Noah have helped by providing guidance for them, and we have all tried to create a community of the unchosen.
The core concept being promoted here is that the current recruitment system is broken, and it is the fault of all of us who unquestioningly perpetuate it. My response is to experiment with different ideas until we find a model that works for all parties involved. I don't have a magic wand to provide the solution, but do keep notes on what hypothesis is being tested, what seems to work, what doesn't work and what possible improvements we should try.
I admit that I tend to think of things initially in terms of myself and what I would be looking for, more of a single position for someone with experience and marketable skills, and currently holding a full-time job. There's probably some room for improvement in the process for that too, but I don't think the open house idea would be a good fit.
Here are two previous HN threads on Brooke, Noah, Staffup Weekend and their method:
https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8859199 https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8958290 https://www.futureadvisor.com
P.S. We're looking for an infrastructure engineer.
Applicants spend a significant time to prepare and come on-site, even though in many cases this only leads to a rejection. A company's brand and culture should (by a candidate) also be evaluated by how they treat the candidates they don't hire, just how a person should be evaluated by how they treat their waiter.
We've created smarthires.io for this reason. Companies can refer candidates they liked but didn't hire and we'll introduce these candidates to other companies in the same network. Many times a candidate who's not a great fit for one company could be the perfect fit for another.
On the other hand, I disagree with your assertion that I made people take a course as part of a hiring process. I simply said that I’d hire someone if they knew some things and 27 of my candidates who didn’t know those things asked if I would teach them for fee. I agreed to offer a three-week course on condition they wanted to learn for its own sake and that they were NOT doing it to get a job because I wasn’t guaranteeing anyone would get hired and, besides, the chance any one person would get hired was perhaps 4%. In the end a bunch of them proved to be superb and I hired two instead of one as I’d originally hoped. And I got a few others jobs elsewhere. I didn’t have to do that, but I did. And they didn’t have to learn what they did, but they did.
You can accuse me of being biased in favor of people who like learning things for its own sake and who know how to do the job I need done. But if you are going to accuse people of forcing time-consuming education on candidates then I’d hope you’ll spend time going after employers who force you to have an irrelevant degree from a costly university before they will even let your resume past some idiotic filter.
Some thoughts on this discussion…
ON PREJUDICES: Often I don’t get what I want because other people have inaccurate judgments concerning me. But what can I expect; who has the time to really do due diligence. And who am I to judge their judgments of me? If I were a judge at court I’d have to recuse myself because I am way too close to my own case.
This is not to say prejudice doesn’t exist. It does. And it is not to say it isn’t harmful. It is. Prejudice harms us all and the prejudices that harm me the most are my own; they keep me from being all I can be.
When I overlook good candidates because I judge them on irrelevant characteristics then I am constraining my options and that does me no good. Although it would be wonderful if the world was perfect I’ve found it most fruitful to concentrate on the problems closest to me and interestingly they usually involve something about me I could improve upon or resign myself to. I’m happier and more productive when I spend so much time trying to be part of a solution (and not the precipitate) that I don’t have time left over to theorize about what people beyond my influence should be doing.
ON MENTAL DISABILITIES: If you spend any time with the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders I’m sure you can find yourself and everyone you know in there. It seems to me that strengths and weaknesses of the mind should be considered only if relevant just as with things in the physical realm. I’m not sure where to draw the line, however I rue the day when sociopaths cannot be discriminated against. In any event, I’ve concluded that life is a terminal spectrum disorder we just have to deal with as best as we can (until we don’t have to any more).
ON SELF-DISCLOSURE: As a practical matter, if you have an obvious disability the best time to bring it up is right before it becomes obvious. For example, if you have a stutter and you ask for forbearance at the beginning of an interview then you can win people’s hearts and they will be rooting for you. But if you don’t then often they cannot wait for the conversation to end. If your disability is not obvious but might require accommodation later on then probably the best time to disclose it is after you get a job offer and before you accept.
If you choose to go public with your issues and make them a cause célèbre then in order to win broad support it will need to be clear that you are doing it for the benefit of people in your circumstances and not just as cover for your own failings. Even then, the recognition you deserve might only come posthumously, but that is irrelevant unless it is recognition that you seek.
PEOPLE I’D LOVE TO HEAR FROM: Although this discussion is interesting I wonder if any of you out there would like my help improving how you hire people. If so, please contact me.
I am retired and don’t need to do this, but I want to. If you are stinking rich I can be expensive and if you’re sincerely broke then I can be free. Either way, you have to tell me who you are. I’m at BrookeAllen.com.
My Bipolar-Type Schizoaffective Disorder was diagnosed in 1985.
I started my first salaried coding job in 1987.
I was hired as a Product Development Manager in 1990.
I graduated with a BA in Physics in 1993.
In 1994, I invented a novel, unobvious lossless bitmap graphics compressor.
In 1995, I was hired as a Senior Engineer at Apple Computer, where I worked as a "Debug Meister".
In 2000, I was married to a woman who knew all about my illness. We purchased a nice house with money I earned as a consultant.
In 2015, I can't get a job because I have grey hair, and I am openly public about being mentally ill.
With respect, why do you do this? How can you possibly think this is a good idea?
I sympathize that you have a mental illness, but you're being stubborn by complaining that you can't get a job when one of the primary obstacles is clearly in your power. Don't advertise that you have a mental illness. No matter how you would like the world to work, it does not work in such a way that advertising mental illness is in any way conducive to searching for a job.
Here is another example, to take away the stigma of mental illness: I'm a hiring manager, and I just found out that you have cancer on your blog. This was directly in the navigation of the blog.
This is bad. I don't want to not hire you because you have cancer. I don't want to discriminate against you. But you've suddenly become much more complicated and emotionally loaded than this other person who doesn't have cancer. Worse, you display no regard whatsoever for social cues by advertising this so bluntly.
If your mental disorder has anything to do with you not getting a job, it's really just because you're sending horribly unattractive social/communication signals to potential employers.
There is an idealized world we'd all like to see, and there is a world we actually live in. It's not like you're a woman being discriminated against here. Your mental illness does not need to literally be the first thing people see about you when they look at your online identity.
Sorry if any of this was harsh. I wish you the best in your search, but please consider not being quite so "loud" about your problems. Reframing who you are to potential employers could do wonders.
I'm curious too, why you do the linking on your site, when you seem to be looking for work, and you suspect it's preventing you from getting it?
One good way, before interviewing if possible, is to travel to the office during the time of day that you expect to arrive, were you to take the job. For most people that would be morning rush hour, but I commonly work at night.
As well, travel from the office to home - or perhaps to the general neighborhood where you expect to relocate - at the time you expect to get off work.
When you interview, ask the hiring manager whether he knows where you would be likely to sit, where you to hire on. In the case of my work at microsoft, that one question would have led to my turning down the contract. I was expecting an office with a door I could shut, but because I was a contractor, on my first morning I was told I'd have to sit in - I Swear I'm Not Making This Up - "The Boiler Room".
If they have a lunchroom, ask to see it. Extra credit if you can actually eat there.
I personally care quite a lot about what I can before and after work, and during my lunch hour in the general neighborhood of where I work. Some people don't care but I do - if there aren't any cafes in the area, I don't pursue it. That precludes quite a lot of otherwise good jobs that are in the middle of huge industrial parks.
Let's put Michael's specific situation aside for a moment. The truth is, neither of us knows WHY he isn't finding work. We each might have our own inklings as to why but there are surely some causation/correlation flaws we have no insight into. (And I will get to this)
So let's take him out of the equation and create a fictional person having a hard time finding work-- call him Bob. Maybe Bob went to a poor school-- or no school-- or blogs about satanism or who knows what. Bob's getting passed on and he doesn't really know why but can only suspect. You or I certainly cannot know why either sitting where we are so we really shouldn't speculate, even on the reasons this fictional person claims are the reason. That's because only the hiring managers passing on him know and their reasons might be different from what he thinks AND each other. This is not to mention that they might not even be able/want to verbalize it. Maybe some are bigoted and don't like his nationality. Maybe he smells funny when he walks in the room. Maybe they are all just assholes. Maybe he is terrible at what he does and doesn't know it (I went to school with someone like this who thinks the world has it in for him but he's really just very uncomfortable to be around and he can't help it and can't be made aware of it for whatever reason.) Sometimes these things are "gut" feelings-- right or wrong-- and they make hiring a particularly inexact science-- especially for the job seeker trying to reverse engineer it.
What I have found working with the un-, under- and mal-employed is that a lot of times the reason they suspect they aren't finding the work they want-- and the reasons third party observers suspect-- is not really the case. Put on top of it the fact that hiring organizations often refuse to say why they didn't hire someone to shield themselves from lawsuits and that compounds the problem. Sometimes candidates walk into job interviews they had no chance of getting even before they walked in through no fault of their own-- I wrote about this here: https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/20140917152632-29657051-make-...
So what's the solution? Well, there is no perfect solution but there's also know obvious answers either. Coming back to Michael for a moment, in my experience, a lot of times people don't look at personal webpages so-- even if his suspicions about the mental illness affecting his job chances are right-- I highly doubt it has lost him EVERY single opportunity. Which, to be fair, it doesn't seem he is suggesting. What does that mean? Well...
tl;dr: there's something going on none of us knows and/or cannot know that's at play here.
Lesson: STOP DECONSTRUCTING THE JOB SEARCH! It's stupid. It's like trying to figure out why someone doesn't want to date you. What are you going to do? Argue with them?
Yes, sometimes these practices are inane, frustrating, even illegal-- though the burden of proof is so high it's probably not worth most people's time.
And yet-- and yet-- there's SO MUCH WORK TO BE DONE in the world, SO MUCH, and money is so cheap-- SO CHEAP-- creative job seekers with a modicum of skill can usually find meaningful work if they circumvent the traditional job search process. Indeed, these jobs are often better. I wrote about this as well: https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/20140912054444-29657051-explo...
Only three questions matter when screening a candidate: can he/she do the work, does he/she want to do the work and do you want to work with him/her? The current process of resumes and keywords and personality-based interviewing biases toward the last question-- in my mind the least relevant. Lots of people didn't want to work with Steve Jobs because he was a certified maniac-- but so what?
Certainly you don't want to hire unnecessarily disruptive people but I'd suggest companies be wary of passing on candidates too quickly for reasons we SUSPECT (key word) will make them poor fits-- including matters of which probably only trained medical personnel are qualified to speak about, even if to do so makes us feel safe.
In my mind there are two types of organizations-- growth-focused organizations and risk-averse organizations. Generally speaking, risk-averse organizations will accept almost any reason not to hire someone if they don't fit a pre-determined mould (the right profile, the right background, the right look-- yes, the right school, etc) and depending on the firm's market position and corporate strategy that may make sense. This is the opportunity for the growth-based organizations.
The market for people who are good at getting jobs is fierce and tight. If you can find these candidates on LinkedIn with the right keywords, they will be expensive and possibly flight risks anyway because they are very liquid in terms of marketability.
But if you are looking for people who can and want to do the work, the market is wide open. And the benefit will be to the organization that sees this inefficiency and exploits it. 80% of people are in the wrong job or don't have one, per Gallup and gov't statistics. If that's not an opportunity for any enterprising organization, I don't know what is.
He is very picky about what company he will work for, for example he doesn't like Amazon's labor rules so he refuses to work for Amazon or any company with labor rules just like them. He doesn't want to work with Windows, instead he focuses on Linux and Mac OSX. He has Java skills, and lists them on his resume, but he doesn't want to do a Java job.
His resume was once four pages and he had to learn to trim it down to one page. He sometimes lists obsolete technology on his resume as well.
He wants to write drivers and system level programs in C/C++ and he favors Codewarrior 8.
He has a point about the ADA protecting the mentally ill from discrimination, but there is a stigma about the mentally ill by managers that they can't trust them enough to hire them for a job. They see people in wheelchairs, blind, and deaf as disabled, but mental illness cannot be seen and thus not considered a real disability.
I share schizoaffective disorder with Mike, it can cause communication problems and having trouble getting social clues. Just by typing or talking a person can pick up on that you are mentally ill. We communicate in word salads sometimes when we get into a bad mental cycle. Where the words are all mixed up like a salad.
I can say: "I want to work in Haskel, making games for the Wii U, from home, for 3 hours a day only". No matter what my experience, I won't be hired anytime soon.
Noah (owennoah) posted some magnificent suggestions to a very serious endemic problem affecting millions of job seekers and hurting employer's ability to find good talent. But the reply to him is a vaguely victim blaming rant pointing out Michael's specific flaws based on subjective impressions of some things seen on the web.
A pointless response is bad enough but a destructive one simply boggles the mind.
I get this all the time. Every excuse in the book and then I ask: "Did you follow up?" "No." "Did you send a physical letter or make a physical cold call, or even a telephone phone call-- something to break through the noise?" "No." And then I prod them to do those things and they don't. An unfortunate part about the job search is that its a sales process and many people don't require sales skills to do many jobs yet suddenly we expect them to sprout sales skills like wings when suddenly its time to look for work, often when they are at their most vulnerable moment-- the time they NEED that job. It's a cruel farce. But there are ways around it.
That's why I talk about exploding toilets-- a lot of companies just need the work done. Ask any sleazy late-night locksmith if he works on his sales skills. No, he has the tool you need when you are locked out of your apartment at 3am. You want him or not? Fortunately or unfortunately, there are enough exploding toilets out there that job seekers who really want to fix problems don't have to worry too much about navigating the job search as a sale-- they just have to get some attention. But in order to get attention, they need to want to get it and that's often a bigger problem than you know b/c most people don't want to fail or risk looking ridiculous, as if these people they are contacting will even remember them-- and then they create excuses for why they can't and often blame others.
But again, back to the original point: the reason we think is the problem often isn't so trying to deconstruct it is pointless. It's like dating. If someone isn't a match, move on. Someone out there wants you desperately-- but only if you want to help them and can.
http://blog.up.co/2012/04/30/not-even-bmob-threats-could-det...
https://twitter.com/dhawalc/status/209088242094571520/photo/...
Not saying it is true or false, but they show up in a Google search. They could be a factor.
I also found this tweet: https://twitter.com/MisterMarkup/status/196368916501626881
Edit: Added Tweet
One more, from a dead website: https://web.archive.org/web/20120505130855/http://mobile.ore...
A person who does Interviews who Googles your name will uncover this sort of stuff. They will read it and not give you the benefit of the doubt. You won't get a chance to explain that you were talking about sloppy practices that lead to industrial accidents.
Instead they will read where you got ejected from hackathons for allegedly making bomb threats, and then move on to the next candidate.
I think this is a big factor in why you don't get jobs and contracts.
You also exposed the software consultant problem of not being paid on CNN during that Joe Stack event: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhLV7jydPJ8
If an interviewer had watched that show, they could have a negative view of you and remember you had exposed the software consulting industry of being a hard life and not always being paid.
You have been a critic of the startup scene, you have been a critic of the software consultant career, you have been a critic of so many things that it gives you a negative reputation with recruiters and interviewers. All of this is revealed by a few Google searches of your name. On top of that you are very picky on what company you work for and what development tools and OS you will use. These things are seen as being negative, and recruiters and interviewers want to see positive things, people not complaining about the industry but instead solving problems and working with others as part of a team.
All of these things raise red flags and prevent you from being hired. The major factors are not your mental illness, but these other things that can be revealed by Google and other search engines. There is also a criminal and financial/credit background check that employers/contractors/clients do prior to hiring that also has to be done. They will see that the police ejected you from Hacker Dojo etc, and see the times when you were without money and owing back debt and back taxes. If they see you have bad credit, they might worry that you are more likely to steal from the company. This is true for federal background checks for government contracts.
Those things are what I uncovered with just a simple Google search, and I sure there is more that can be found.
Your essay on your mental health: http://www.warplife.com/mdc/books/schizoaffective-disorder/
It is the least of your worries.
You also point out that the software problem isn't about bugs, it is about human beings. Which is kind of controversial:
http://www.warplife.com/jonathan-swift/books/software-proble...
Some people adopt the philosophy of a stoic: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stoicism
They don't complain about things, they study problems and how to solve them with logic. When you discover a problem, you don't criticize the industry, you don't get negative, you work on a solution and stay positive and stay in a good mood instead of a bad mood. When you discover a problem, it is an opportunity for you to find a way to solve it. This is how many people have become a success, and how many startups get founded.
I think you are misunderstood, I think you have a great amount of knowledge, I think clients miss out when they reject you, but you have a negative image on the Internet and in real life that just drives people away from you.
I myself deal with negative thoughts, when I write something criticizing something or being negative here on hacker news I get downvoted. I have to remember that I should stay positive and find solutions to a problem if I discover a problem. It is positivism and creativity that I need to be focused on, and so should you.
Edit: typos and better analysis and advice.
There is also a factor of things found on Googling his name that are other than his mental illness essay.
I was posting those things to help him understand that there are other factors besides a mental illness that interviewers look at. I had hoped it would show how to over come that, and find a job. But I don't know of any solutions to it other than to get negative articles about him removed from the Internet, or create his own positive articles and SEO them over the bad articles. A reputation website might help with that.
Well all have flaws, sometimes we don't admit to them and don't learn from them and fix them. Many are in denial of them. Nobody is perfect, and in some cases you have to take a job using a technology you don't like to pay the bills because nothing else is available. I spent a decade with Windows and Visual BASIC, people laughed at Visual BASIC at the time, but I got paid money to develop in it. There are people who had ethics that Microsoft was corrupt so they refused to use Windows and Visual BASIC, but a lot of jobs at the time were for Microsoft IT shops. Those people who refused to use Microsoft tools due to ethics went without work. Some projects were short and didn't have a lasting value and some people refused to do them as well and went without work.
Myself I can learn almost any language or OS out there, I see them as tools and I don't hate one and love the others. I was able to find work because I wasn't picky about the tools or OS.
If someone is mentally ill such that it's obvious to folks around them, and they communicate poorly compared to another candidate who is in other ways equal, then is it discrimination not to hire them? (not saying this description applies to anyone here; I'm just asking a hypothetical to get a sense of what's meant by discrimination)
If you interview a person and say to yourself, "This guy is kind of strange. I'm not sure he'll pick up on social cues, so he might make people in the office uncomfortable. Sometimes he doesn't communicate well. He can't explain what he's thinking, and his words are a jumble. I'm not sure he could publicly speak, like give a presentation, and I sure wouldn't want him to represent my company to customers." Is it discrimination to pass and choose another candidate who is comparable in other ways, and not hindered in those communication and interpersonal ways?
They could just write down "overqualified" or "lacking social skills" or "doesn't get along with others" as reasons and not even mention a mental illness.
If one tells a lie when being deposed, it is perjury.
You assume the interviewer will tell the truth in court, he/she will lie and make up a different reason why they didn't hire you to avoid being fired or covering things up.
You almost have to record them saying it, or having a letter or email where they say it. It is really hard to prove. It comes down to your word against theirs.
They aren't stupid enough to write down "This guy has a mental illness I refuse to hire him" they will make up other reasons to cover up the fact that they don't want to hire a mentally ill person.
I've been through this many times, filed with the EEOC, talked to lawyers, ended up on disability because I couldn't get a job. They never say they rejected you because you are mentally ill. Always "not a good fit", "overqualified", "not a team player", "lack of social skills", whatever they decide to write down even if it is not true.
Lawyers would not take the case because it was hard to prove.
I'm OK with any other kind of work. I have a wide variety of experience, and am quick to learn.
I myself had to learn to adapt to these new age ethics by Paul Graham and others. Most of the industry goes by these modern ethics from Dotcom giants to the small startups.
They can tell you aren't a good fit just by the interview when you reveal your 1960's code of ethics.
It might also be wise for job seeks over 35 to dye their hair or beards, for women to use gender obscuring name choices, for Jewish people to hide their religion and gays to hide that fact. Not only will this not solve any problems it will make a much worse future world.
So while individuals may solve their particular problems by simply giving in to a broken system (I myself am posting here semi anonymously after all), it sure makes things worse in the long run and impossibly harder on people who can't hide these things (eg race).
At its peak, the copy of Living with Schizoaffective Disorder that I have on my own website - there are copies elsewhere - had 8,000 readers per month.
The State of California Mental Health Department placed it on a reading list that they distribute to their county clinics.
I was able to give some closure to a grieving mother whose son low-level formatted his hard drive then killed himself for no apparent reason.
It's nearly the same thing as racial discrimination, except that it's based on something unseen. Rosa Parks didn't move civil rights forward by avoiding the negative consequences of acting how she believed she should. Sometimes the only way to get closer to that idealized world we'd all like to see is by acting like we're already there. Money isn't everything.
It is more important to me that others read my essays on mental illness, than that I get a job.
Edit: But even so, being poor totally sucks.
You mean than this other person who might be lying to hide their cancer from you.
Your bigotry has made you say that you would prefer dishonest liars to people who are honest but with a mental illness.
Don't you see how utterly fucked that attitude is? It's disgusting and you should feel ashamed.
But Dan's point is well taken: is this what we want to incentivize? A culture of lying and partial disclosure? Now, that doesn't mean 100% disclosure of all things at all times-- people have a right to privacy. But what I think is often lost here is the understanding that when we force everyone to wear masks, we often end up not knowing where the masks end and the real faces begin.
Wait, who is the "dishonest liar" in your hypothetical scenario? The person who "might by lying"?
>>Don't you see how utterly fucked that attitude is? It's disgusting and you should feel ashamed.
You've made this far more personal than it should or has to be. You've completely misunderstood my meaning and chosen to become very offended at something I did not actually say. Given that, there is no reason to lash out at me when I am simply trying to help him. If you disagree, just say that.
Now, I'm not a bigot. I genuinely care about his predicament. I've known many people personally who suffer from mental illnesses of varying types.
What I was explaining is a hypothetical scenario where someone discriminates subconsciously, not consciously. They see a person's candidacy for a job and their first association is with mental illness, not competency. This is a terrible first impression. My point is that the world is filled with what I call "grey-area" discrimination. It's people who are otherwise kind and caring but not self-aware enough to stop themselves from discriminating when a subconscious impulse arises in the face of something they don't want to deal with.
Now, elsewhere in this thread Michael explained that it is more important for him to take a stand than to have a job. That's fine! I fully support him. As long as he understands the impression he is making in interviews and job applications, I applaud him for being so committed to social change. My purpose was only to help him understand that what he is doing is tactlessly honest, if one wants to apply for a job. It appeared to me from his parent comment that his primary goal was getting a job, not taking a social stance, so I wanted to give frank advice.
We all embellish who are to inspire confidence in others. On a date you will talk yourself up. On a job interview you will talk yourself up. Relaying a story to your friends, you will talk yourself up. Michael is doing the extreme opposite of that, and I wanted him to be aware of it because it was not the first time I had seen him complaining. But I fully understand his decision, in light of his explanation.
What is particularly upsetting to me, is that those who seek work, are expected not to take stands.
Consider that I am - indirectly - related to Roger Sherman. On the back of the US $2.00 bill is John Trumbull's "Declaration of Independence". The original painting is in a very dimly lit room in the US Capitol building.
Uncle Roger is fourth from the right, the tall guy with the tall forehead.
All of the founding fathers who signed the Declaration of Independence risked their lives by doing so. This led to their having a handwriting contest; John Hancock got to sign first, because he had the boldest, clearest handwriting.
While commonly regarded as tragic that soliders, sailors, aviators, policemen and firemen give their lives for what they believe in, I am commonly told that it is wrong for computer programmers to live their lives conscientiously, rather than by working towards their employer's next quarterly report.
What I regard as a predicament, is that I am unable to find paying work.
It is particularly upsetting to me that my many skills are going to waste. I see so many young people making so many mistakes - just look at the prevalence of negative iOS App reviews in the iTunes Store.
There is so much that I could teach those who are just starting out. Not to make the mistakes I once made, as well as how to do the things that I've learned since.
To use assertions before you use debuggers for instance. While well-documented, such a practice is not well-understood.
Some things are more important than work: Hitler put the mentally ill in concentration camps long before he put the Jewish people there.
Even so, it would be nice to have a job, and not to be faced with discrimination.
Consider that most today revere the Reverend Doctor Martin Luther King Junior as a saint. But during his lifetime, he was not permitted to stay in hotels during his travels, and so had to sleep in his car. He wrote once about how that really got him down.
Edit: Suppose I did get a job. What problems would that solve? In the US, the mentally ill are legally permitted to wear their own clothes, as well as to manage their own financial affairs while we are in mental hospitals. Even so, the hospital staff either is unaware of these facts, or refused to abide by them.
This is the case even if one is on an involuntary hold.
If I got a job, would that enable some other mentally ill webmaster to pay for his domain renewal, so he doesn't lose his livelihood?
As a practical matter, a mere failure to speak out upon occassions where no statement is asked or expect from you, and when the utterance of an uncalled for suspicion is odious, will often hold you to a concurrence in palpable iniquity. Try to raise a voice that will be heard from here to Albany and watch what comes forward to shut off the sound. It is not a German sergeant, nor a Russian officer of the precinct. It is a note from a friend of your father's, offering you a place at his office. This is your warning from the secret police. Why, if you any of young gentleman have a mind to make himself heard a mile off, you must make a bonfire of your reputations, and a close enemy of most men who would wish you well.
I have seen ten years of young men who rush out into the world with their messages, and when they find how deaf the world is, they think they must save their strength and wait. They believe that after a while they will be able to get up on some little eminence from which they can make themselves heard. "In a few years," reasons one of them, "I shall have gained a standing, and then I shall use my powers for good." Next year comes and with it a strange discovery. The man has lost his horizon of thought, his ambition has evaporated; he has nothing to say. I give you this one rule of conduct. Do what you will, but speak out always. Be shunned, be hated, be ridiculed, be scared, be in doubt, but don't be gagged. The time of trial is always. Now is the appointed time."
John J. Chapman
Commencement Address to the Graduating Class of Hobart College, 1900