Ask HN: Would you stay somewhere just for money?
I got laid off and took over a year to get a new job I accepted an offer for what I think is a very low amount (< $40k). I am not as confident in myself as I should be, despite high praise from coworkers/managers. So fast forward 16 months. No reviews/raises/anything in that timeframe.
It's a small IT consulting company (< 50 people total) that when I started had 2 programmers and myself. One left ~4 months ago. The other left this week. So now all the work falls on me. So I know have a lot of leverage.
Problems:
1. the money; I felt like I had to take what I could get after such long unemployment and probably should have brought it up a long time ago but it's low. Second part is I don't know how they would react if I asked for too much.
2. the size; I am not going to be able to move up from here. The company is small and local so it does not offer any of the things I need (or think I need) to advance to where I want to be. '
3. building on the last thing...I had started to look for a new job (starting with those companies that I thought would be ideal for my goals). It's only been a couple weeks so it isn't like I have to reject an offer but I have been trying to be more confident in my skills and applying.
I am very lost on what to do. I understand that I have to ask for a raise. There is no way I can be the only programmer and for what they are paying me. I am conflicted though because I am actively trying to leave, which, I think looks terrible if I ask for a raise and leave anyway. On top of that I would be leaving them with nobody.
Has anybody been in this situation or one similar? I can't see anything good coming of any of this; either I sit in this job and maybe I earn more or even the number I want (unlikely), or I leave and they are high and dry and probably burn the bridge forever.
Thank you if you made it this far and I will take any advice I can get. Ask questions of me if it helps.