No Adderall, Xanax or Provigil for me either - the only things I can get right now are Tofranil from a friend (which is technically illegal) and racetams from eBay.
Are you dealing with EDS as a significant symptom in addition to anxiety? ADHD?
However, if I was suffering anxiety, or any other disorder, to the point where I wanted to take medication, I would see a doctor. I would not trust myself to diagnose myself, let alone prescribe a course of treatment.
Depending on severity, OP may be stupid in this desire. But it is one's right to make stupid decisions for themselves, and produces better long-term outcomes than binding people to the stupid decisions of others.
Does your distrust of yourself mean you abstain from caffeine (for alertness) and alcohol (for social disinhibition), etc?
And again, I was not asking anybody to justify anything. You read some "strong assumptions" into my question, Ms. Rand.
From experience, shrinks will prescribe whatever they want instead of what I ask for, since they know better and I'm a dumb foreigner who can't even explain things properly.