On that note, I finally got to do some 2cb, 2ci, and 2ce about 2 years ago. Amazing stuff.
Alot of shit happened that do not mix with my new life...
Two of my close friends where busted for having secret illegal chemlabs- and a huge investigation followed. Alot of my friends where talked to by the police.
Today the police is a client of mine....
And alot of my friends never progressed in their development- i needed to move on. It isnt the drugs, it is the subculture that is the problem...it is wonderfull, lots of great people- but...you know :)
Anyway, my point is, it isnt the fact that I dont do drugs that means I am taking life seriously. It is that i cutted off that part of my life, the people, the mindsets, the illegal aspects of many things involved in that life.
And I am getting old, I need my 9 hours of sleep to performance max! :)
But I havent said "I will never take X drug again"
I just havent felt like it :)
That also played a part....none of my close friends died of it, but people at raves i went to did....
I remember I was at a rave, deep in a forest, an none announced secret rave- and this was playing: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4BgMxgwkfu8
I was tripping balls on 2cb, everything was moving, there was string art, people was dancing and where happy.
Then at the beach i see an ~ 8 year old girl crying, I go to her and ask: Why are you crying little girl? "I cannot find my mom" WTF! I was not in any condition to act responsily, but that was wrong, and not good! So I lift the little girl up, and go to the "dance stage" and yell out "WHO KNOWS THIS LITTLE GIRL?!?!?!" And I do not know how long I did that, it was a weird night and i was tripping balls. But finally an ~30 year old women with pink hair and glowing clothes says "Hey, that is my girl what the hell are you doing with her" I should have said: "What the hell are YOU doing with her? This is not a place for such small girls, and you fucking left her at the beach to go dancing- what the hell is there matter with you????" But all I said was "Take her......", and I went to the beach pretty shocked and confused...that wasnt really a good night.
Anyway, my pointe is "I am too old for that shit!"