p.s. -- and when you feel better, if you're interested in (paying) freelance work and have the right skills, send me an email at stephen dot impassebreaker dot com. I can't guarantee you that it will be a ton of work or a ton of money. I can guarantee you that depression will not be a strike against you, if you can do the work. But get help first and don't screw up deliberately and get yourself fired.