I'm a bit like you (but older - 44 yrs, divorced). I am trying to "build something". I use the spare time I have to practise and practise and practise. And then practise some more.

Edit: After reading a few comments from people feeling sorry for you, I'm afraid I might have missed your call for personal emotional support. Sorry about that. But if you were not after sympathy, then my original post stands. Practise to improve your skills (doesn't have to be programming). Do lots of practise while you have so much free time. When family and friends (and pets) come around, you will wish you were family-less, friendless and pet-less. And don't feel sorry for yourself.