Well, Im 41 today, and I genuinely wish I had never been born. I don't understand or feel part my own species, or understand the world I exist in. Im simply waiting to die off.
My sympathies dude. I prescribe more of what you like and less of what you hate, if that's possible. I'm 41 too, and that's what works for me. That and trying not to think about it
so, good luck everyone.
Don't let this be true next year again bro.