It sounds like we need to start a club.

I moved to Paraguay a couple years ago and have been going through some of the same types of stresses and emotions. I spend my mornings working alone, in my apartment, on a personal project that will (hopefully) earn me some income. The afternoons, I do a bit of contract programming for a local company, but am the only person on the project, so I don't interact much with the other programmers. When I come home, it's back to my personal project.

I keep telling myself, once I earn enough semi-automated income to pays my bills, I'll get out more. But it often feels like my life is "on hold".