Seeking Inspiration?
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Or that I now have so many ideas from others whirring around in my head, that it is difficult to separate my own personal desires from the experiences and projects I read about in blogs and discussions, so I emerge without really knowing any of my own dreams and dispositions.
However, this hasn't stemmed my desire to get better at making music... quite the opposite... but I have been a lot more systematic in my practicing and a lot more willing to be confident that performing work other people have performed is a legitimate practice.
I have felt similarly in my own programming practice: most every thing that I really need to do has functionally been done in other contexts, and my task is to figure out the best ways to bring those previous works to bear on my own context... so I feel less "creative" but more effective.
We may flock to TED and Hacker News to read about what others are doing, but not for inspiration in the sense that we will be inspired to do things, but rather we seek reassurance that people are doing things, things that we feel we could do if we tried.
We want to see people we can relate to doing great things so that we can feel that those things are with in our ability.
When you watch Nascar you think you can drive fast. When you watch TED you think you can change the world. You aren't inspired by Nascar, you are envigorated, excited, but not inspired.
TED and Hacker News is nascar for geeks.
In any case, I like dropping in on smart people debating stuff.
e.g. at the conference/lecture/business meeting/serendipitous coffee, your excitement level is 110%
To truly do something, you must continue working when you are not inspired.
a day later, 70%
a week later, 20%
Three birds sat on a railing. One decided to fly off. How many birds are there now?
* I should be building my own business
* I should be better at this
* I should be earning more
* I should be living a 4 hour workweek
I've realised that these are caustic feelings that cause a low level pervasive feeling of stress, and worse distort the lens that I observe myself through.
I'm far from unsuccessful: I'm a self taught programmer and I'm good at what I do. Financially I'm up near the top in terms of earnings, despite only programming professionally for 5 years or so. Partly I'm successful due to that thirst for knowledge I guess.
So it's a difficult balance between healthy inquisitiveness and a desire to expose oneself to new ideas for their own sake, and getting stuck in a negative consumption/inhalation loop with no corresponding fulfilment/exhalation phase.
Reading Hacker News, for example, can be done for entertainment.
And there is nothing wrong with that.