Thank you for the advice. Point 1 is so difficult. In fact it's why I don't tell anyone how I feel anymore (in real life, not the internet). It's so easy for someone to say yea but what about that kid in Africa who doesn't even have enough water for today. I don't know what to say to that.

I am trying 3 right now. It does help to get you through the day, that is for sure.

On point 4, my opinion is so weak and changeable that I'm not even sure what I want. Perhaps I need to build confidence first somehow.