> Especially this notion of "I don't have a an idea". There's a simple answer to that. Make that your intention, make it your job to get an idea.
Yeah, I've tried that. I've read "48 days" and got stuck at the point it says "what do you want to do". I emailed them and told them this. They tried to help. It didn't (at all). Basically, I want my own business. I want to work from home or somewhere where I control my environment and location. But the main thing is that I love is my family. I will continue to do the shit I am tired of doing (tired of it since 2003) because it continues to pay the bills. I've wanted to be running my own "shop" since ~2007. I've read lots. I've listened to lots. And I just keep getting older and dumner. So now I've actually started to do more than just buy a domain and sit on it or talk about doing things. I've started, but I'm not totally in love with it. I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up, because when I list those things, it sounds like an uber rich kid philanthropist, not someone who is service-oriented. When I think about the things that I would most love to do in terms of work, it would be helping others and feeling competent and helpful in my own business. That's all I know. That's not enough. So "figure it out" doesn't help me anymore than a shot in the leg helps someone to be motivated to run. But, I'm trying. I have something going. And it's the first time I've been excited about work in a while.
BTW- that link you posted is awesome, but here is a tough quote from it:
"But I don’t get close to anyone bringing me down. This rule can’t be broken. Energy leaks out of you if someone is draining you. And I never owe anyone an explanation. Explaining is draining."
That is both true, close to home, and also sounds so selfish. I think you need to be there for your friends- your real friends at least- and family like he said, and that can really mean that you get drug down. By the same token, I drag them down. I think this quote is about 50% right then, but the rest of that post is right on.