Anyone out there reading this who might want to do the same thing: Don't. It's not hopeless.
We shouldn't treat people like shit and refuse to help them with their suffering, then complain bitterly when they commit suicide. When this happens, it is our failure as a society.
It's their decision. There are myriad reasons someone may want to end his/her life. It's not the role of someone not in the headspace of the suicider to comment on what they're going through.
It's astounding that so many people want to restrict the freedom of others to be released from suffering.
The suffering is too often imaginary, do you understand that?