I hope you feel better soon.
Also, it's pretty commonly understood that the site exists so that like minded people can find each other when they otherwise likely wouldn't have crossed paths, so it's a great way to make new friends (and/or social networks). If you still have some anxiety, I would suggest contacting the group admin and saying you're interested but a bit nervous about going to the first meeting. It does take a small amount of money each year to host the group, so the people in charge of it usually care enough to try to make people feel comfortable enough to come and keep coming. (I have a friend who runs a small meetup group for writers, and he's always extremely super thrilled when new people come out to it.)