I've taken this drug, the potential side effects are definitely scary. I was lucky enough to only suffer from dry skin and increase sun sensitivity (which is still existing to this day).

I know that when I was taking it (that was 12 years ago), the dermatologist would only prescribe it as a last resort, and, in case of a girl/woman, would always proceed with a pregnancy test first.

I personally am happy I took this drug but I can fully understand it's not your case.